Time to fight your own vendetta

great company

USS was a blast yesterday. In total, we took Battle Star Galactica 9 times (10 for the boys), 5 on the Cylon and 4 on the Human, (are we human, or are we ….. cylons!), on top of taking the mummy ride 4 times with the fourth time solely to get an awesome on-ride photograph since we figured out where the camera was. That’s 13 roller coaster rides in a day. Spent the entire opening hours in the theme park to get our money’s worth, 60 bucks bodoh! That makes it 9 hours guys haha. We took rides in a theme park almost as long as we would study in the library/at the wishing well pre/during As.

Thank you study gang. The closest group of friends I have currently despite knowing them for just a short period of time. Okay la, that only applies to Sam, Kiawei and Niccol because I’ve known Wynne, Hanissa, Fiq, Tat and Qiqi for much longer. There’s also, Aaron, Wen Ying, Stacey, Daryl whom well admittedly I do not know well but hey at least we are friends! Nonetheless… I’m just thankful that God had planned my paths to cross with theirs(:

I guess it wasn’t really USS that was fun. USS was a mere context. I had great company that’s why I had fun. At the end of the day, I’ll remember the boys’ failed epic attempt and Hanissa’s alternate laughing-breathing-screaming cycle.. The rides were awesome, but even if we had chose to do something else that day, I’m pretty confident we’d have the same amount of fun, just perhaps a different kind of fun.

I’m just thankful, just super thankful.

xoxo

beautiful disasters

25th February 2009

B Division South Zone Quarter Finals

RGS vs St Margs

CCAB Courts

That day was, as I had once perceived, to probably be the worst day of my life. The worst possible imaginable thing happened to me and I felt as though the world has come tumbling down upon my netball career, something that I hold dearly to my heart, something that I felt that I was actually good at. Life was dark at that moment, I didn’t know what would happen to me, how long I’ll take to recover and most of all, will I ever be able to play again. At that moment, I really felt that I was living in a nightmare, it was all way too surreal and it took much effort for it to sink into my densed head that, I Just Tore My Freaking ACL.

Countless times, the thought of giving up netball (and possibly sports in general) crossed my mind. Stemmed from the trauma of experiencing excruciating pain of surgery and recovery as well as for fear of immobility in the future. Transiting from sec 4 to JC1, I was considering of totally leaving behind what has accompanied me through years of ups and downs to pursue something less, traumatic and painful. I’m not sure whether I’ve mentioned this to anyone, but in Jan/Feb 2010, I was seriously considering quitting netball to pursue a leadership role in the RI 30th Student’s Council. Well, with no intention of putting down Council, I chose netball. It was an easily hard decision ? I mean what was holding me back from quitting netball were excuses I made up myself. In a way, there was an internal dilemma ? HAHA weirdz.

By the way, that was the Best. Decision. I. Made.

Easy enough, the innate passion and longing to blaze up and down the courts and feel the rubbery feeling of the netball ball on my fingers were the driving force that pushed it towards pursuing netball. Some might find it a waste that in my first year in RI netball, I spent almost every training in the gym, building up strength on my injured leg rather than be on court, the way a sport is meant to be played. Well, I must admit, many times I found myself feeling sian about being stuck in the gym, yearning to partake in court trainings alongside fantastic talented teammates. But, on hindsight, I’m glad I did commit to my strengthening workout.

It was certainly not a waste of a year. Rehabilitation and recovery has taught me patience and focus. Patience because it takes a helluva time and effort for my leg to gain strength and focus because I kept my eyes on the prize throughout the entire year, and that was to make an awsm comeback by season 2011. Little did I waver and let lose of the goal in mind.

So what if I was still not quite prepared for a competitive A Div 2011. It’s fine so long as the best players from Raffles are on court.

25th February, little did I know then, was indeed a blessing in disguise. Little would I have expected to act as a role model and source of inspiration to others. Ann and Shaeron were fortunate/unfortunate to have had to experience a similar incident. I’m glad that they come to me for advice and that they hope to come back on court strong soon enough, just like I did or even better.

So guys, everything happens for a reason. Stay strong(:

xoxo

lookin’ good

Some looks i simply adore. J’ADORE.

One thing I realise about myself is that I enjoy and appreciate fashion forward-ness and I find myself purchasing clothes and fashion (affordable haha) that is in trend. However, most of these items are left in my wardrobe or perhaps only worn a few times thus not doing them justice by depriving these looks of the “screen” time they deserve. I guess, I’m afraid that “keeping up with the latest trends” may be deemed as attention seeking or be misinterpreted as try-hard. Thus I often find myself, always toning down my looks.

Well, it’s a new year, and this year I want to be bold. In everything I do, including what I wear. To hell with judging looks and false presumptions, imma be who I wanna be (:

Anyway here they are !

LOVE (http://inlovewithfashion.com/)

ROMWE (http://www.romwe.com/)

By Maddy C (http://lookbook.nu/maddy)

By Cocorosa (http://lookbook.nu/cocorosa)

By Zina CH (http://lookbook.nu/user/67185-Zina-C)

So guys, be bold! Don’t let anyone stop you from being the person you want to be(:

xoxo

/unrequited

Hi everyone. This is Callum Hann and he is the Masterchef Australia 2010 runner up. He is also a cutie pie and I have a crush on him and it doesn’t matter that he is already in a relationship :> He is 20 years old (and I’m 18! I have a chance ??) and he can freaking cook zomg.

will never forget his AWSM macaroons even if I can never taste them (:

okay bye.

xoxo

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and as strange as it sounds, studying is sort of an escape no ? when you’re studying, the aim is to focus and get things done to check things off of your to-do list and eventually achieve this sense of accomplishment given you’ve pulled through something many might agree as being dreadful. the focus you need when you study prevents your mind from wandering off to random frivolous thoughts that should not take up your time.

in a way, studying is therapeutic even if sometimes it is undeniably the cause of much pain heh. when i study, i can’t afford to get distracted by thoughts that bother me while i’m stoning in bed. weird that i’m realising this but it’s cause stoning in bed was basically the bulk of my activity for the past few days since i was sick and i was miserable and upset not only because i was physically weak and restless but also because i had the freedom and the time on my hands to allow myself to overthink certain issues. today, i feel truckloads better (: (sorta ? -ish) like i can actually sit up in my chair to do some work without experiencing sporadic blackouts and a throbbing headache. and i strangely feel, happier (: haha. im not thinking of the unhappy things i was thinking of prior to today (okay of course now im unconsciously thinking about them since im writing about them now … but you get what i mean)

study hard guys <3