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Just so very tired. Been getting on average 4 hours of sleep each night (except last night i crashed after coming back from friendly). Despite how “paying off your sleep debt” doesnt work, I somehow have to adapt to it. Because there are simply not enough hours on weekdays to accomplish everything you need to. I resort to sleeping in on weekend mornings, to make it up to myself. I hope I can keep this up at least.
Sleep, besides reflecting on how lazy one is (hahahaha), is like a temporary escape for me. Because when you sleep, somehow your thoughts are uncontrollable. You dream of things that are bizarre and most of the time you dont even remember those dreams by the time you wake up. You forget about your troubles for a while.
The amount of sleep you get is inversely proportional to the amount of stress you experience. I NEED TO SLEEP. But every time I do, I feel syiokerz for a moment before feeling SUPER GUILTY. Sometimes, you feel as though sleeping seems to be a waste of time /: Much else could have been accomplished while you’re sleeping.
SIGH I DONT EVEN KNOW. RIGHT NOW I JUST WANT TO SLEEP GNIGHT.
xoxo
