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and as strange as it sounds, studying is sort of an escape no ? when you’re studying, the aim is to focus and get things done to check things off of your to-do list and eventually achieve this sense of accomplishment given you’ve pulled through something many might agree as being dreadful. the focus you need when you study prevents your mind from wandering off to random frivolous thoughts that should not take up your time.
in a way, studying is therapeutic even if sometimes it is undeniably the cause of much pain heh. when i study, i can’t afford to get distracted by thoughts that bother me while i’m stoning in bed. weird that i’m realising this but it’s cause stoning in bed was basically the bulk of my activity for the past few days since i was sick and i was miserable and upset not only because i was physically weak and restless but also because i had the freedom and the time on my hands to allow myself to overthink certain issues. today, i feel truckloads better (: (sorta ? -ish) like i can actually sit up in my chair to do some work without experiencing sporadic blackouts and a throbbing headache. and i strangely feel, happier (: haha. im not thinking of the unhappy things i was thinking of prior to today (okay of course now im unconsciously thinking about them since im writing about them now … but you get what i mean)
study hard guys <3
